I don't want the world to see me,

Cause I don't think they would understand,

When everything's meant to be broken,

I just want you to know who I am.

                    - "Iris" by Goo Goo Dolls

 

For all those who were wondering about what my name means, well, Ziffer means the state of nothingness,

when everything is dead inside. Yeah! its a real weird name. But I love it!!

 

Brown eyes, jet black hair covering my face. Thats me. And I'm pretty thin. Actually so thin that girls ask me whether I'm anorexic or bulemic. That hurts!!
 

 

BTW, I'm the boy all the bad girls want. To me it ain't a rule if I ain't broken it yet. As Blink-182 says - "Teenage rules are f-ed and boring."
 

Lines that were written for me:

"I'm wasting away,
Made a million mistakes."


"And I'm flawed,
But I'm cleaning up so well,
I'm seeing in me things you swore you saw yourself"


 

My light: I love reading, writing, music, movies and gals - in that order. I'm cocky, wild, unpredictable, impulsive, irresistible. Everybody loves me. 
Also an introvert. Bad one at that. Can never start a conversation. Horridly shy of anything that talks.
Don't smoke, don't drink.
I usually write morbid stuff. Its like I'm trying to find a meaning, but of what I don't know...
I like to write game walkthroughs too. Most of my works are at gamefaqs.com and neoseeker.com and of course
here.
My fav. walkthru:
http://faqs.neoseek er.com/Games/Playsta tion/resident_evil_3 _j.txt
And I draw. But only cartoons. My fav chars to draw are Rogue, May Parker and Jean Grey. If u don't know their origins, I'm not telling ya!!

My kinda perfect gal -
- plays baseball;
- wants to have a flat chest;
- only doll she owns is a G.I.Joe.




My dark: I'm manic depressant.  Suffer from anomie - thats the syndrome of feeling alienation from others. Actually there is a character in a Sidney Sheldon book "Tell me your Dreams", Alette Peter, thats so much like me that it scared me like hell. I gave the book to the girls I've dated yet no one could see thru that character into me. And I'll wait....

My kinda perfect gal: multi coloured hair, nose ringed, navel pierced, tatooed, attitude child, complete goth.



I believe: No father should be denied the right to bury his son.


Favourite Gals: Read that as gals I'd love to do!!

Anna Kournikova
Shannen Doherty
Cat Deely
Brooke Burke
Elisha Cuthbert
Estella Warren
Rachel Leigh Cook
Jennifer Love Hewitt
Jessica Alba
Jennifer Lopez (awesome rump!!)
Katherine Heigl
Eva Mendes


Fav VJ: Paula Malai Ali of Channel [v]


Favourite movies:

1. The Quest
2. The Rock
3. The Matrix
4. Animatrix: Final flight of the Osiris
5. Cruel Intentions
6. Little Nicky
7. Romeo et Juliet
8. 100 Girls
9. Underworld
10. 2 Fast 2 Furious
11.Driven
12. D2:The Mighty Ducks
13. Final Fantasy: The Spirits Within
14. Titan A.E.
15. Down to you
16. Final Destination
17. Coyote Ugly (one of the reasons cause the boy collected comics just like me!!)
18. 40 Days and 40 Nights
19. Camp Nowhere
20. Get over it
21. The Parent Trap
22. S.W.A.T
23. I am Sam (why the hell didn't they give the Oscar to Sean Penn?)
24. Sweet home Alabama
25. Event Horizon
26. Dead Poet's Society
27. I've been waiting for you

I wish I had died before seeing:

Blade II
Wet Hot American Summer
James Bond movies
Austin Powers movies
Once upon a time in Mexico
Spice World
Go!
Shoulin Soccer (human stupidity at its epitome)


I grew up mostly on punk, alternate, nu-metal. Blink-182, SUM-41, Josie and the Pussycats, Linkin Park, American Hi-Fi, Nickelback, Simple Plan, MxPx, Yellow Card, Limp Bizkit. But now I'm kinda turning to the dark. Evanescence. Heavy, black, death metal. Cannibal Corpse, Archenemy, Amorphis, Rammstein, Six Feet Under, Brujeria, Carnivore.


Fav songs:

November Rain - Gun n' Roses
Always - Bon Jovi
I'd do anything for love - Meatloaf
I don't wanna miss a thing - Aerosmith
Wherever you'll go - The Calling
All the small things - Blink 182
Family Reunion - Blink 182
Give me one good reason - Blink 182
Vindicated - Dashboard Confessional
Over my head - Lit
Makes no difference - SUM 41
Flavour of the week - American Hi-Fi (story of my life)
Never Again - Nickelback
Boys of Summer - The Ataris
Bring me to life - Evanescence
Sk8er Boi - Avril Lavigne
I want you to want me - Letters to Cleo
Runaway train - Soul Asylum
Three Small words - Josie and the Pussycats
Answer the phone - Sugar Ray
Rollin - Limp Bizkit
Hanging by a moment - Lifehouse
Fallen Angel - Poison
Engel - Rammstein
Divinity - Amorphis
Something told me - Coal Chamber (fuels my sucidal tendencies)
Invisible wounds - Fear Factory

Open your Eyes - Alter Bridge
Penny and Me - Hanson
Playmate of the year - Zebrahead
Forgotten - Linkin Park
The Reason - Hoobastank


I hate pop, R^B, soul, hip-hop. And hate Britney Spears, Christina Aguilera, Justin Timberlake, Blue, well, basically everyone who dance when they sing.


Fav Writer: Jeffery Archer

Fav books:
The Catcher in the Rye - J.D. Sallinger
The Fourth Estate - Jeffery Archer
Not a penny more, not a penny less - Jeffery Archer
To Kill a Mockingbird - Harper Lee
Ivanhoe - Sir Walter Scott
The Black Arrow - R.L. Stevenson
Diadem: Book of names - John Peel (haven't read the sequels)
Harry Potter series 


Fav series:
C.S.I
C.S.I: Miami
The Street
Dream team
24
Silk Stalkings 
Boy Meets World
The Brothers Garcia
Becker
X-Men:Evolution
Curious Play
You're Under Arrest


Lastly, my favourite games. I don't actually love the FPS games. Mostly RPGs.

NHL 2000 (trend setter)
actually, the whole NHL series by EA Sports
Tomb Raider series
Alone in the Dark
Resident Evil series
Clock Tower III
FIFA series
Tenchu II
Unreal Tournament
 


There you have it. Thats me.

Seems no one can help me now,
I'm in too deep,
There is no way out,
This time I've really led myself astray.
                - "Runaway Train" by Soul Asylum


 


Ron Weasley's right, it sucks being poor.

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